Archive | October, 2010

Sober October

1 Oct

I’m 26 years old.  Everyone that I know in my age range are all the same. Same in the way that we have our Monday to Friday, 9 to 5 jobs, but once that weekend comes, we love to shake off the work week with bottles of wine, beer and booze in general.  Whether there’s a reason or not, we love to have a good time and we will use anything for a cause to celebrate.

Personally for me, this past summer was a little bit of an eye opener.  Along with the good times, well there were some bad times too.  There was definitely some drama going on in my life and the liquor wasn’t helping at all.  In fact, it made it worse.

Throughout all of these memorable (and not so memorable moments), I decided that enough was enough.  I couldn’t do this anymore.  I hate waking up and having those “OMG, what the hell was I doing last night?” moments.  You know when you make a complete ass of yourself and then have to deal with the consequences still feeling like an idiot.  I hate being hungover and feeling like shit, wasting my whole Saturday or Sunday away because I’m nauseous and can’t even move.  I hate craving McDonalds and pizza and ice cream and chips the next day thinking it will make me feel better when it totally doesn’t!  I hate dropping $100 (sometimes more) at the bar JUST on liquor.  And I hate that sometimes, I don’t always make the best decisions when I’m drunk.  I’ll admit it.  Sometimes I’m a mean drunk (some like to call me a bitch) and I hate having to make those apologetic phone calls when I can’t even remember.  Oh yea, I hate when I can’t remember.  And one more thing…the drunk texting of exes!!!  AHHHHHH!!!  That’s the worst and I’m the worst for it too.

OK so after careful consideration and weighing the cons and cons (that’s right, no pros) I decided I needed some clarity.  A time to reflect, a time to think about my life and what’s important to me, a time to figure out what it is I really want and a time to be rid of the drama.  The decision was made and it stands firm.  I actually stopped drinking when I came back from Kelowna on the September long weekend.  Majority of September was alcohol free (YAY!!! for me) and I’m going strong into October.

You’re probably wondering if I haven’t drank since the beginning of September, then what the hell is so special about October??  Well nothing really.  I just liked the name.  Haha.  No it’s not just the name.  What I’m so excited and also a little surprised about, is that since sharing my decisions with some of my best friends, I’ve gotten 4 other girls to join me.  And I didn’t even ask them to do it with me.  I just told them my plan in normal conversation, and all on separate occasions. Then I received texts, bbm’s or tweets telling me that they’ve decided to hop on the bandwagon.  I love that.  I never thought my personal decision would ever have impact on anyone else.  To tell you the truth, I was a little embarrassed to even tell anyone about it.  I didn’t want them to think that I was an alcoholic or that there was a problem.  It was just something I needed to do for myself.

Seriously, these last few weeks I’ve felt amazing.  I feel that I’ve definitely learned a little bit more about myself and I know there’s only more to come.  All of the major drama is either gone or I’ve just learned to put it behind me.  There’s still a few things that could be better, but hey life’s not perfect and it’s not supposed to be perfect and this is a work in progress.  Ummm that was a little “Lindsay Lohan tweet” of me but it’s true.  I hope all the girls that joined me, find what they’re looking for and get what they want out of this little experience.